Mele Kalikimaka!

Aloha friends sorry for taking so long to write a christmas message. I think I have finish all my Christmas shopping and I have wrapped most of the gifts except the ones I have to mail to the mainland. I know I am late but it has been a trial trying to get everything organised. All I need to do is wrap them and take them to the post office. I think it is ok as long as you mail them beofre the 25th lol. I have been starting to do the Holiday cooking. So far I have made chocolate dipped strawberries, the pistachio fruit salad, a pasta salad & the dip for a vegetable tray. I still have to make Won ton both kinds the meat filled kind and the dessert type. Who knows I might even bake some bread & my really toxic good cookies (chocolate, chocolate chip).

Gosh I thought it was going to be a sad and lonely Christmas this year because this is the my first Christmas totally alone. My niece folks are going to visit their inlaws and I was planning on staying home and not doing anything I really don't like to go to peoples houses. I am not really comfortable with other people. But it is really not bad, sort of I am still not comfortable, but I think I am handling it ok. I have been invited to my cousins house & a girlfriends house on Christmas eve. On Christmas day I am going to a buddys' house for dinner.

At eleven pm on Christmas even I am singing in the Choir at a friends church, my friend who is the Choir director asked me again. He plays the violin, piano & base as well as sing. There will also be a hula, a saxaphone solo & a flute solo. God knows how much I love Christmas caroling he always arranges it so I can sing carols for Christmas. I visited my old church for a christmas pagent and the Worship leader and his team don't know very many carols. I find that very odd. I got called up to dance a Christmas Hula I danced walking in a winter wonderland.

Christmas is a very special time on Kauai. With lots of parades and parties, some of the parade floats will drive through my neighborhood on Christmas eve with aguy in a raindeer suit and santa and all kinds of stuff. I really miss my family during the holidays. It has rain non stop for like 4 days in my neighborhood. I think moss is going to grow on my lawn soon.

Well have a Blessed & Joyous Holiday season!!

Kolohi~~~~~~~

ok I apologise.

I am so grumpy as of late. Must be finals comming up I can't wait till the semester is over. It has been unusually rough semester, With computer breakdowns, technician imcomepetance and general rudeness of people I am soooo tired of trying.

I am hoping that the new year will be better.

I sort of decorated for Christmas. I have a little tree on my table with lights on it. The girls at work have been talking about doing a new years party and wanted to come to my house but I am no where near ready to be entertaining. I don't even want any one over to even help me clean. If I had my way I would do it all my self.

Unfortunate of me I need help from others. Until now I have always prided my self in being the one that was there to help others. Now the shoe is on the other foot and it is very uncomfortable.

At dinner last week a very wise but young friend told me that it would be wrong of me to refuse help from my christian brothers and sisters. He said I would be accountable for dening them the chance of getting their blessings for helping me. He will be going away for a while I am going to miss him making me laugh, he is such a sweet heart and oh so polite. More young people need to be like that. He even gave me a christmas present , a copy of linux redhat (he said something to keep me busy during the break) he knows the kind of stuff I like.

Back to the weekly gripe.

It is very difficult to accept things when you where never used to getting any help from anyone.
Actually living alone is no different then it was living with my family. I still have to carry all the groceries in by my self and put it all away and clean up their messes. I have been living alone over a month now and I am still trying to clean up after all the messes they have left not done.
It is going to be fine. It is just getting things in order stresses me out. After that I have been thinking of renting out the house and doing something fun.

one of my girl friends is encouraging me to go with them on a RV trip across the USA. Just travel around for a couple of years. I am considering that I could just go and not tell anyone one where I am going. Not like anyone would care anyway they probably wouldn't notice that I was gone. I doubt if they would care anyway. My friends wouldn't even care either. They probably sick of talking to me any way. I am such a pest right??

Oh whatever I think I am having the I am doing finals I want to runaway and not deal with any of the commitments I have made with people. Hey wait a minute I could like make promises and then run out on the people I made them with. I could borrow money and not pay it back. I could take stuff that did not belong to me. I coudl buy people gifts and not give it to them. Wait I coudl not buy anybody gifts any more good idea.

OOPs I better get back to my studies. Ineed to pass this final.

Oh my goodness!

I know now that I live on a Rock in the middle of no where. I have computer that I ordered and I was assured that I would get it today. Oh yeah it is here on the island but I won't get it until Monday because they won't deliver it. Fedex does not deliver on Saturdays or in the afternoons. I hate living here everything takes twice as long to get from anywhere to here.

Kawaikoi Stream the most beautiful place in the world. I wish I could live there!!!

I would just love to spend my days in peaceful meditation here. Floating in this stream and counting clouds passing by. ..............................Drifting away......................

I could just love that. I wish that I had some one to share all this with. So beautiful so lush.
I could do tours or something. LOL ...................I wish..................

But honestly nobody cares what I think anyway I am only a grouchy whiner anyway. C$#%& I wish I wish I am so tired of caring. I think I am going to get a job where I don't have to have any face to face contact with people. I don't want to meet anyone new. I don't need new people. I kind of like being alone. There is no one in my little hermit world to hurt me. It is really quite good I think.............