Well today I lost one of my best friends in the whole world.

Oh no he did not die. He just left with out saying good bye!!

He helped ease my pain through the toughest of times, but when he had to leave he left like a thief in the night.

That is so unfair cause I would have liked to say good bye.

Lord only know that would have been the responsible thing to do. The christian thing.

I wish I had the chance to tell him that he will always be a brother to me. And that he would always hold a special place in my heart, you know the kind you hold for family. The funny thing I was going to release him from his promise to help me. He is like a brother to me.
I only hope that he is not lost forever!!!

You know now my entire family is lost to me. The last 2.5 years has been a nightmare. 2 siblings have died. Now 2 siblings are not talking to me
I am proverbially like Job, just as he lost it all I have lost my entire family including my Hanai baby brother.

I hope and I pray that God always protect them.

I really don't mind at all that he goes, it is what the Lord wants him to do. And that is ok.

But I wish he would have said goodbye before he left. Just so I know he is ok.


I am also praying for him. I am praying that he deals with his problems quickly otherwise they will follow him where ever he goes.

I did this once when I was 26 or 27 to my sister boy was she ever so mad.

I did it because I couldn't face her because I didn't want to see her hurt or angry. It only hurt me all the more. It has taken me 42 years to learn how to stand up and take care of business.
I have been learning to deal with my problems. It is tiring, draining and oh so not easy.

As for my buddy, Lord only knows h0w he helped me through hard times, Sad times.
I only can pray that he does not forget the friendship. And some day he will feel it is okay to contact me. I will give him the time he needs.

Life can be so unfair but I know that God is good to me and what ever he takes away he will give me double for my trouble.

I believe that God will give me my family back and more.

Don't feel that you can't face me.

What about curteousy? It would be the responsible, mature, Christian thing to do?? wouldn't it?